learnings of a 1/3rd dozen days

Ususual learnings from recent unusual situations:

• 'One who shows ignoble fear in the face of danger or pain' describes me.
• Everyone has problems, your own are just magnified.
• Utlimately we are all selfish; recognizing so can help make it a virtue.
• I am capable of very mean, selfish, hurtful things; yes, i am human afterall.
• Being ignored hurts.
• Denial can lead to enlightenment.
• Deadlines dont amuse me, they scare me, I pretend otherwise.
• Life, overall, does amuse me.
• I dont understand passion.
• Ambition, aspirations, leadership, etc etc are just concepts.
• Whatever I know, think, speak; might just be absolutely wrong.
• There is no right or wrong.
• Sometimes you can on and on.
• Sometimes you cant say a word.
• Its possible to have thoughts that cannot be communicated verbally.
• I like myself when I am absurd.
• Saying the truth doesnt hurt anyone, but the one whom it is about.
• Mostly, emotions and feelings are just hormones & enzymes: porn, music, laughing, alcohol help.
• I want coffee.
• Crowds are repulsive to me.
• The criteria isnt how much you know me (anymore), it is how much I know you.