"My world, your world , angry, happy, painful, smiling, breathing, downward spiral, system breakdown, nauseous, panic, bring on havoc, reaching out with patience, hold me while I hold you, somebody I can't solve all my problems today, no, but you can lean on me now, because I am looking for the same, the distance grows , sincerely I wonder, lover or ally, cleanse me, don't try, torture, cave in, bruise me, 'til I say when, cuz I've got, no courage, so hold me, while I hold you"

Its the third day, of a new year, based on a calender, made by who-cares-who.
Mind missed it, with relevance - the criteria, coming back to life now, thump, ouch, damn you

Ever heard the hindi saying - 'Jo bhi hota hai ache ke liye hota hai'?
Acceptance is a killer, silence is golden, striving for adjustment!
Acha, bura, sahi, galat, upar, neeche, good, bad and the ugly, there are three dimensions, always?

Out of a twenty day 'get-to-know-yourself' camp, with nothing much to write, if you supress your thoughts too much, they break into minute impactful non-verbal 'things', never to be put into words again, but expressed throughout life, studying my own behaviour, is a treat I d rather not have.

Vindication is a wave of 'aha', and its being wrong, selfish, right & knowing too much.

Though, life could have a better explanation than this! I'll keep looking.

But as I evolve, I let my core be the 'order', and growth be the 'chaos'

Nobody knows.